We live our lives operating under some fairly basic illusions. The illusion of safety, the illusion of separateness, the illusion of duality. They are constructs that confine us to certain operating modes, locked into the matrix of working to live, sacrificing our passion for a sense of security that is as fleeting as a cumulus cloud on a windy day. I have come to a point in my life, my second Saturn return, where every lesson I’ve learned is being held up in the light, requiring scrutiny. My path in life has meandered, some of it predictable and conventional, some of it wandering into uncharted territories, leading me further from the shores I know into a vast and beckoning sea of possibility. That which makes the least sense on paper makes the most sense to my heart. It is now impossible to ignore its plea to live a life less ordinary, to value love over fear. I recognize that all of the things in my world designed to make me feel “safe” are in and of themselves uncertain, and the only certainty is the peace within my heart. It is unshakable, and leading me to a life that calls me deeper into my own evolution.
I wrote this in the shadow of the Great Pyramid at Giza, a portal to so much more than I can articulate. I had climbed the stifling shaft to the King’s Chamber that morning, the end of a pilgrimage which began in Luxor and wound through the desert, to an oasis, and then back to the incomprehensible crush of humanity that is Cairo. The juxtaposition there is stark - the sounds of this bustling hotel, construction next door, motorcycles and cars jostling for position in the street nearby, horns and people and call to prayer filling the air with the life of this sprawling city, as the Great Pyramid stands sentinel to it all, the silent guardian reminding us of the mystery and history of which we have no memory, only a reverberating echo of resonance within our hearts. Eternal, impossible, and utterly captivating, Egypt is an unending question that captures my soul. If this pyramid exists, defying all conventional wisdom of how it could have been built, still standing thousands of years later, why do we buy into the misperception that our life must be dictated by norms that were established by some nameless patriarchal influence eons ago? Why have we clung so hard to an order that serves the few and leaves the many longing for more? We are in the early stages of its death throes, the last gasps of a dinosaur aware of its own extinction, thrashing wildly to maintain relevance through sheer force and belligerent presence. The more it gasps, the less air is available to it, yet it continues to struggle, to attempt to dictate the terms of its demise. It does not see the new paradigm sprouting up around it, seeded from love, watered with curiosity, and pruned with intention.
I see so many people shrinking in the fear of the unknown, their constructs of safety challenged by uncertainty. Why is what is undefined so frightening to us? As my Egyptian friends would say, it is life. Life is uncertain, unstable, chimerical, and ever evolving. Why have we burdened ourselves with expectations of predicability? We are suffocating from sameness, our vitality slipping away as we sink under the waves of complacency that keep us from our own enlivenment. We work at jobs that don’t fulfill us to earn money to buy things that we hope will fill the emptiness, the void inside that is the portal to our soul that we have neglected in our attempts to keep ourselves safe. It is always a shock when stability is wrested from us, when the unexpected blindsides us and we are scrambling to return to a what was that never truly offered the safety we imagined. It is time to live the what is. It is time to live in resonance with our soul’s calling, to the voice within that must be heard, that must be set free into the world to create a new resonance, a new paradigm that sustains us as we express the gifts we carry inside. We are born Knowing, we hold lifetimes of earned wisdom, of lived experience. It is time to resurrect ourselves into our Sovereignty, in Sacred Union within so we may live in harmony and community. As within, so without. As above, so below. Be fearless. Do the unexpected. Answer the call of your Soul. Let it lead you home. Blessed be.
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